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(po polsku poniżej) Bali, Chapter I Tabanan. Getting to know each other. We spent the first 3 weeks in Tabanan, in the middle of rice fields in the mountains. We stayed in the place called Bali Lush for 99% of our time, not really moving around. The driver who was moving us to the next destination asked – didn’t you […]

ENGLISH BELOW Czas się obudzić. Ile lat żyłaś w przekonaniu, że świat to niebezpieczne miejsce, że nie można mieć wszystkiego, że żeby być szczęśliwą trzeba się napracować, że pieniądze dają spełnienie i bezpieczeństwo, że trzeba kierować się rozsądkiem, że na pasji nie da się zarobić? Ile energii włożyłaś w to, aby zbierać dowody na to, że tak jest? A co, jeśli tak nie […]

I’ve been searching for these answers since I was pregnant with my first child 4 years ago. I have observed and experienced parenting where everything looks fine from the outside. There is a home, parents, trips, cool clothes and toys, and at the same time deep inside there are unmet needs for love and connection, belonging, recognition, adventure, or security. […]

I change my inner structure. I detach myself from the illusory layers of reality that I considered to be the truth about myself and the world. I restructure myself by navigating my feelings as the compass of my truth. I run an internal barometer that tells me what is mine and what is borrowed. I check if he still needs the old walls with peeling plaster that served as the foundations of my being. I feel like I’m suffocating within these walls. And he decides to create new spaces inside himself, more compatible with me here and now.

However, there is a part of me that is forgotten, hidden, and my whole life has been an attempt to mask this part of me from the world. I’ve created a lot of mechanisms and strategies so that this part can live while remaining invisible. This is the part of me that unconsciously controlled me for most of my life, […]